patterns

In my youth I had difficulties in coping with (in)visible structures of power, and their devastating consequences. They left wounds that became scars. In this project I tried to find answers to compelling questions e.g. what to do with wounds and scars that were inflicted upon me but are not mine, what do scars to us and what do we do with them, do we choose to pay attention and nurse them, or do we prefer to hide and neglect them?

In mendings of textiles I found a metaphor for these mental and physical scars. Do not both scars and mendings bear witness to damage and the way it has been coped with? Or were they neglected and did time do the rest? I want to recognize pain, find and offer consolation.

In my workshop I highlighted with cloth and gauze those places in textiles where mendings or wear was visible; I took pictures as if they were wounds. The small dimensions enhanced the intimacy of the subject.

As bearer I choose Japanese Tengusho-paper; its fragility, tactility and transparency refer very aptly to the human skin. The presentation invites the spectator to enter into the intimacy of the wound.

Phasing of the work (work in progress)

The first series focuses on introducing the metaphor and on visualizing the ‘wounds’. In the second series I investigate into how the wounds have been nursed, how they were treated. By physical manipulation of the damaged textiles (e.g. embossing them onto an new bearer) I enhance the contact with the scar.

The third series (work in progress) gauges for the origin of our scars: our past, our ancestors and their wounds. This results in collages in different layers, in which old family pictures become bearer to the scars